Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Dear Summer, (no more sad love songs)

Once again you've come and gone, and i can't decide if you were a long summer or a short one this year round. When I think about the fact that I am about to start my last year of college life, I think, damn, summer where did you go? But when I sit back and think of all I did this summer, I think, yes, I am ready for school to be here because I've done my fair share of partying, tired of the same faces at the same places (no offense to any one in particular, it just gets old after a while, and sometimes taking a break is needed) and I am ready to see all my school friends who live out of state.

We had a good one this year summer. We had a rocky start, but once I finally let go of all the baggage from the past, i've realized i've never been happier. I always knew the sad lonely nights and heartache would eventually fade away, but I kept holding on to it for the wrong reasons and didnt want to let go of the history "we" once had and built. but in the end summer, you helped me realize, the only one suffering was me, and I deserve to be happy, and thats exactly why its called the past... because i've finally moved past.

this year you brought me San Francisco, Las Vegas, spending quality time and living with my God family in LA, a great job, the ability to actually save the much needed money, fun summer days and nights with friends, blissful kickbacks, wild club nights, reuniting old friendships and making a few new ones, a craaazy 4th of July, and a much better Labor Day in comparison to last years historical one (l-o-l).

With you Summer I have grown. I have seen some friendships die, people change, and embraced it all without any complaints. I experienced 3 funerals, the most i've ever had to attend in a 4 month span. I experienced illness this summer that even though, now cured, the emotional and physical pain of it will never be forgotten, but i forgive the one who brought it upon me. I have learned who and what is important to me this summer, and learned from the many mistakes of last summer, spring, winter, and fall. Even though at times, when I stayed hidden in my shell, and felt different and all alone from the rest of the world, and even after i eliminated all the negatives in my life, both situations and people, I knew that at the end of the day, i'm not.

so here's to you summer, and to our many summers to come, and until then, i thank you and will miss you; your hot sunny LA days, the beach, the pool, and the warm nights where you can wear exactly what you wore that day without having to throw on a jacket, and the care-free days of not having class or homework. I take with me the lessons learned, and start my new adventure into true adult hood.

I'm ready for you Fall/Winter/Spring.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

that was amazing...i actually teared up a bit. i'm glad you had a great summer :)

sheiswinterwest said...

Glad you enjoyed your summer. sorry for the deaths you had to experience. wishing your last yr. of college is a GREAT one.

May God Bless you!

L.A.Bella said...

but i forgive the one who brought it upon me..if you don't stfu cause I love you far too mcuh right now!!!

Anonymous said...

erin i read on your twitter that u dropped ur blackberry in water - did u find a way 2 get it 2 work again?? i did the same thing 2day and the screen is all water marked!

lovely picture btw